I know, I know.
Technically, it is Monday, but since I haven't been to bed yet it is still Sunday to me.
I've been having trouble sleeping the past night or two. So much is on my mind.
At the forefront is my youngest daughter, Laken. She had surgery on Friday the 13th (she was not thrilled about the date!) to have her gallbladder removed. She will be 17 in February so she's young and this was her first surgery. The surgery went well and her recovery has been pretty standard. She's without pain medicine now and is moving so much better. The pain from her icky gallbladder is gone but she is still feeling some nausea. I'm hoping it is just her system still adjusting. We are headed back to Children's Hospital in Pittsburgh tomorrow (or today...Monday) for a follow-up appointment with her pediatric gastro-enterologist.
Something else that is on my mind is that I am now (for the time-being) a SAHM again. I had started looking for a new job a few weeks ago and then decided to go ahead and resign the week before Laken's surgery so that I could be available to care for her through and after her surgery. It was something I prayed and prayed about and just felt like it was the right thing to do for me and my family. Now, I am job hunting. I've had a few interviews but haven't heard anything back from anyone yet.
I've been struggling a bit lately with finding my groove and routine. Of course, it has been stressful knowing that Laken was getting surgery and then caring for her as she healed. (I still feel like I am right where I am supposed to be though.) Now that she is pretty much self-sufficient again, I'm a bit at a loss of what to do with myself.
I was really stressing over finding another job RIGHT AWAY for financial reasons, but I know that God has a plan for me and that I need to be patient. I've decided to go about my life fully trusting in Him. Whether that means finding another job or being a SAHM for the foreseeable future, I'm not sure. So, I pulled out my old routine and am going to try not to stress.
It isn't working so well for me tonight, however. That would explain the 1AM blog post.
I am finally feeling a bit tired and think I'll try to sleep now that I've written out some of my thoughts and concerns.
If you've made it this fair, thank you! I truly appreciate you :)